: About Me

Hi, I'm Jen, or Jenboops online. I am 38 years old and have a son turning 8 on the 26th of November. I was born in 1970, graduated in 1988, was married in 1997, had my son in 2000, lost my husband in 2005, and remarried in 2007. It has definitely been an interesting life.

My father was and is an alcoholic which did not make for the best childhood. I am the oldest of 6 children. We left my dad when I was 16. I went from a small school to a huge one and it was great, I even currently run an alumni group with almost 200 people on Facebook. I have a feeling that will make for a lot of good writing.

After high school, I moved to Houston for 8 months exactly. What was the change, an ice storm, that apparently only happens every 5 years, so I figured I might as well be in Missouri with my family. Plus there were some boyfriend issues.

I went to beauty school and had to quit due to a car accident that began a 20 year long fight with shoulder injury and chronic dislocation. I was able to go back and finish, however, with the shoulder issues I was unable to work in the industry.

I got into hotels and eventually became a front desk manager and met my husband, Joe. We moved to Iowa and got married in Vegas in 1997. It took us two years to get pregnant with my son, and I finally had my angel in 2000. We moved back to Missouri, buying a little fixer-upper house for cash. Just before my son's 4th birthday he was diagnosed with Autism and in the summer of 2005, my husband was killed suddenly in a car accident. I miraculously got back in touch with an old friend only to find out she had lost her husband 6 months earlier. She and my son saved my life.

I got remarried to Shawn in the summer of 2007 and there is a lot of things we and I are working on. I have been diagnosed with Panic and Anxiety disorder, Post Traumatic Stress Disorder and now Bipolar II. I'm working hard to recover from these and the grief that I still face, but my son is worth any effort that it takes.

I now have lots of friends, some old and some new, a ton of support, a miracle child, a home, my best friend, a husband that is willing to work, and a really really tall stepson who kinda thinks I'm cool. I also have tons of nieces and nephews, some biological, some not, and they bring so much joy it is inevitable to be happy.

I finally searched myself and found what it was that I had always dreamed of becoming. First was a mother, that was an easy one. Second, was a writer, a bit of a surprise. I had always done well with letters and resumes and journals. It was really hard for me because there was always so much I wanted to say, sometimes it was easier just to not. Then I had a rough, missing Joe night, and decided to write and I wrote poetry, and my pain and feelings just came out and it was dark but it was beautiful. Then I remembered that I used to like to write and started writing more and more and started feeling better, better I think that I can help poeple understand so many things.

So here I am, working on the whole writing thing and hope to be successful. I really hope you like my writing and visit my websites for more personal writing and to get to know me.

Thanks for reading,

Jenboops

My passion is ...

My son and writing

I know too much about ...

failing and hurting

My parents always told me ...

too much bad stuff

My childhood ambition ...

was to be a mom

My favorite memory ...

is the day my son said I love you, MOM

Why I write ...

I write because I long for others to understand me.

What I am reading/watching/listening to ...

I'm a TV girl, but I love reality shows, true crime, biographies and all kinds of movies.

My first job ...

was at Hardees, that was fun.

My best moment ...

when I made the choice to let God help me.

My inspiration ...

My son, God, both of my husbands, and myself.

Creative Writing > Poetry Poetry: Fear

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BATTLE When I finally decide to close my eyes and battle the thoughts of pain and hurt that try to steal sleep from me I'm always aware that I am not alone On one side of me lies hope, the hope that dreams with me and has a permanent residence in the back of my mind, that teases me with glimpses of magic and safety I long for On the other side lies doubt, the doubt that is awake with me throughout the day, that keeps me grounded and warns me not to expect the beauty and warmth I want so badly On the edge of battle they wait and I am the battleground, which will give in first, which will su...

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