: About Me

When I was young I wanted to be a magic princess and live in a beautiful enchanted forest with animals and a secret garden. I wanted to escape the ugliness around me and have love in my life. But I was born into a world in a society that told me I shouldn't believe in ridiculous fairy tales, that reality is suffering. People were rarely friendly or kind to me. They were not open to my alternative opinions and ideas. They were self-centered and judgmental. To me this was Hell. I wondered for many years what was wrong with me and what it was that I had done to deserve being in that reality. As I grew wiser through my experiences I realized my negative response to my perceived reality was creating the reality to being with. I was the judgmental one. I was impatient and angry. We are all creating our own reality as we respond to the world around us. I did all of the things I thought I was supposed to do, raised my kids, lived in nice neighborhoods, and worked for the man but I was always on the edge of the norm. I was in a band and worked as a hairstylist. I studied Buddhism and meditated, practices considered odd and even evil by many Bible-Belt communities up until very recently. Any practice that teaches self-empowerment is a threat to anyone who wants to control you and it is no secret that religions have been fine tuned to do just that. The one thing I could not subscribe to however was the idea that life is suffering. I have suffered physically but I am not here to suffer. I am here to overcome suffering through self-empowerment, to learn to master my thoughts, emotions and perceived pain. I am here to create and share. I am here to transform the world by being the change I wanted to see in the world and by finding the beauty in all things. With no reservations, so to speak, I traveled around the world to places like Nepal and Australia, Hong Kong, Europe. I met many different kinds of people, experienced different cultures and lifestyles. None of those things really define me but colorize me and expand my consciousness. I tell my children not to look for something outside of self to find happiness but to do what fulfills them. There is a difference. Fulfillment for me comes in the form of writing music and stories, producing video commentaries about my experiences and reading about other's experiences. Long ago I began my journey to stretch my mind and body beyond the boundaries that others have set, to learn what dreams can be realized out of unbridled imagination and how to nurture that imagination. When we live through our dreams we find ourselves living our dreams. We make choices that lead us right where we are whether we are consciously aware of it or not. We are distracted along the way by our fears and lessons to be learned but as long as we are true to ourselves we will be where we need to be. I made choices that lead me here to this reality in this moment. One day I woke up and walked outside. The air was warm and the sunlight was glistening on the water and I realized that I was living in my enchanted forest and that I am a magical.

My passion is ...

Truth and humor. Transcending fear and anger. Self Sustained Living.

I know too much about ...

How can we know too much? Mind is infinite.

My parents always told me ...

My mother always tells me she is happy. This is inspiration enough.

My childhood ambition ...

To survive. To be a genie. To sing. To live in and with nature.

My favorite memory ...

A dream where I was standing in a beautiful light looking out over a field of flowers that is now where I live.

Why I write ...

To get the thoughts out of my head. To share with others. To channel information. It happens sometimes when I am writing music or on topics.

What I am reading/watching/listening to ...

I am currently watching and listening to A man named Ashamarae. I have been reading "In this Very Life" and a lot of writings by brilliant unknowns on the Internet that resonate with me right now.

My first job ...

Anatomically correct ceramic frog production.

My best moment ...

Now

My inspiration ...

People who remind me that I am a creator. Nature. Humor. Music.

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