: About Me

Well this a little about me. Im a human being with a mental illness called paranoid schizophrenia. I've been hopsitilized like 5 times over the past 4 years. I've been through hell and back...hell some more. If your scared of me I'm used to that. People always judge me because they think I'm crazy. I've never been a violent person or wanted to hurt anyone. I'm a real low key kind of guy who just wants to be normal. I'm 21 and living with my step-mom and dad in Overland Park, KS. I come from a broken home. My mom and dad got divorced when I was 4 years old. I lived with my mom pretty much till I was 17 and lived in Norte Dame, IN. I moved from Kansas City when I was 10 years old and lived in Indiana. All my life I've never had a father figure to look up to so it was real difficult for me to find my identity in high school and other words life. What I really tell you about me is that I've failed alot in life. I've given up on a lot of stuff because people like my family has never believed me. No one has ever been by my side cheering me on to survive and be successful. I've actually tried overdosing on the medications because life has been so hard, but I'm still alive today for some reason. I dont know what reason but theres a reason for everything. Getting to a lighter subject; I like writing poetry to express how I feel. I've written about 15 compostion books full of poetry. At one point I was an ispiring rapper and still am, but haven't found the motivation to keep doing it. I'm really not good with the ladies, but I don't think that girls will make me feel any better about myself. I love old school movies. I just got a job at a movie theatre and I'm pretty excited because I can watch all the new movies before they go to blockbuster. I took a screenwriting class online. I enjoyed that and have written a rough draft of my first screenplay, but haven't finished it because I really don't know how good of a writer I am. I also love dancing and acting a fool out in public to attention from others which I love. I like drinking and hanging out with some of my close friends. At the moment I've decided to go to school for some kind of trade. I love 2pac's music and his life he led. In some ways I wish I could be like him. He's someone I look up to. My ambition in life is just to have a simple life, good job, home, maybe a family someday, but most of all I want happy. I used to be a christian when I was a child and now I can't seem to grasp Jesus or God anymore, but I'm looking for the answer like all humans want to know. Well this is a little about me maybe if you read my articles you can get to know me more. Thanks for listening and have a nice day!

My passion is ...

music and movies

I know too much about ...

lifes ups and downs

My parents always told me ...

really they didnt say too much

My childhood ambition ...

Rockstar

My favorite memory ...

playing airsoft with my bestfriend

Why I write ...

to release the demons in me

What I am reading/watching/listening to ...

Im not reading much, Im watching probably American Idol, Listening to Linkin Park

My first job ...

working as busser for a restaurant

My best moment ...

when I was a child

My inspiration ...

2pac

Creative Writing > Poetry Poetry: Uncontrollable feelings

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These nails in my hands prevent me from holding the cross that i want you to be on, Rage is in my anger with random strangers that give me mad looks, I want to kill crooked cops but i would be caught for murdering a guy with a badge, I've had it with these idiots, people get away with so much, little kids priest touch, Whats up with that bull, America is so full of gigabits and doritos and cheetos with fatsos who play too much warcraft, My feelings are so sensitive to this age that im in a stage of denial, Im a liar a quitter so what am i to say im going to be a winner, The first come last...

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