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About me - Amanda Jean

I am 21 years old and working towards a degree in English Literature. I have had many struggles growing up, due to disabilities, including autism, bipolar and fibromyaliga.
I hope to publish my writings in order to help others gain courage to continue fighting

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Health & Fitness > Autism Living with autism: 2 of 32
I do not understand tone of voice because I do not detect changes. If I do notice when someone is louder, it sounds angry and worries, as well as scares me.I do not understand body expressions. When people come closer, I feel threatened if I do not know them because I do not understand why they would want to be so close.I can... More..
Creative Writing > Poetry Poetry: Relationships: 127 of 451
Before Light, DarknessBrutalbetrayalcomes fromone youtrusted,on youloved.Promise after promise,shatteredone by one.shatteredmy trustpiece after piece.killing mylove trust hope.So sweet,so gently,did youblamefor your mistakesmy confusedmind.So perfectwere youor soyou claimed.while proclaimingfalse flawswhich could not hurt you... More..
Creative Writing > Poetry Poetry: Dealing with pain: 11 of 38
Welcome to Your Life: A Poem about FibromyalgiaOne thousandsharpened pinsSTABone inch of skindrivinginto all ofyour skin,it takes somany, many sharpenedpins to coveryour entire bodyTen thousandknifesSLICEand DICEyour musclestill they areso bruised,so liquid,beforebeginning allover again ina never endingcycle of glee.Inside,yo... More..
Creative Writing > Poetry Poetry: Autism: 8 of 27
Cruel Blessingthough surrounded by thousandloneliness threatensto choke your precious lifeloudly making its presence knownto you, to all surrounding youcreating the stifling blanketyou long to reach outto touch another humanto feel the skin and knowyou are connected to someone elseno matter the ridiculeno matter the costjust ... More..
Creative Writing > Poetry Poetry: Clocks: 8 of 24
Timetickson itsown schedulecontrolledby no one,not you,not I.Timeisindependentof everyonebut itself,ticking offby itsownunknowntime. More..
Creative Writing > Poetry Poetry: Need: 30 of 82
Before you read, I wanted to say that this poem was written during one of the many times I struggled to not cut myself. It describes exactly how I was feeling."Metal Desire"Sharpsmoothmetal bladelovingly caressingmy skintaunting it-making it long,to come deeper,to release the liquid painbubbling beneath its surface.Hot and re... More..
Creative Writing > Poetry Poetry: Addiction: 128 of 329
It tauntsteasesme,telling meI couldbe free,just oncemore,that's allyou canstopanytime.It lieswhile ittauntsrelent-lesslyforeverrepeatingitself.Come,j ust oncemore,one moretime andyou canbe done.This iscomingfrom deepinside,no escape left,I give inashamed tohave givenin and cutonce again. More..
Creative Writing > Memoirs Memoirs: Life: 67 of 163
"I want to go home," I declared, standing in the middle of the kitchen as I watched my mom writing down appointments on the calendar tacked to the wall. "But, you are home", she slowly replied, turning around as far as she could while not moving her right hand from the calendar. "I know," I mumbled, walking out of the kitchen... More..
Creative Writing > Poetry Poetry: Love between a mother and daughter: 83 of 176
A Daughter to her MotherYou've seen me grow,you've seen me changed,yet you don't speak a wordand I am left to wonder.Are you proud of me and what I've done?Are you disappointed and sadden by the choices I've made?Do you think you taught me well,or are you regretting the person that I grew to be?Can you see how you have shaped... More..
Creative Writing > Poetry Poetry: Pain: 202 of 379
Liquid Painliquid paincoursing through my bloodseeking outdestroyingflooding cells of hopeliquid painfluttering past my heartcoating it with crystal hardnessattempting to stifle its beatsliquid painsharpens at is clogsthe brittle veinsdeterioratedweakenedfrom years of crushing wordsactions bashed into themliquid painseeps out... More..