: About Me

About me that I believe people like -

My outgoing, humorous, open minded, non-judgmental, creative, caring personality.

About me that I believe people dislike -

My depressive mood swings, my erratic behavior at times and my low self esteem or worthiness.

I hardly share my feelings with others yet alone my writings. My childhood wasn't at all the greatest. That is where I first started to escape in writing. With each word that I wrote it felt as if I was taking a breath. I felt free from the world .. from the abuse.

Since I always wrote about my feelings, I never showed any true emotion. On the outside, I always laughed and smiled though on the inside I was crying and in turmoil.

Then there came a day when I almost lost my life. After that day, emotion poured out of my soul. After that day, I wasn't able to hide the sadness any longer. I realized I'm no longer a prisoner.

I'm just an average person trying to survive in this journey we call life.

-Nickie

My passion is ...

writing

I know too much about ...

I don't think one could ever know too much about anything.

My parents always told me ...

you're bad, ugly & no one will ever want you. You'll never become anything.

My childhood ambition ...

a writer or an actress

My favorite memory ...

hearing the words, "I love you, Mommy!"

Why I write ...

to express who I am and to watch how my work can inspire others

What I am reading/watching/listening to ...

Living Well with Bipolar and Depression

My first job ...

cashier in a small town grocery store.

My best moment ...

every moment is precious whether it's the best or worst. It makes us who we are.

My inspiration ...

my children

Creative Writing > Poetry Poetry: Death of a loved one

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Heaven's Sweet Place My emotions I hide. The emptiness inside. Not knowing you - rips my heart in two. Within a glance, without a chance; you were gone as I was drawn to a confusing state. It must have been fate since I am here and you are there. On heavens cloud the life you vowed and had to give so I could live. I know we never met. But I shall never forget. The price you paid. The sacrifice you made. And when raindrops fall down upon my face. I'll never forget you're within heaven's sweet place.

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