: About Me

Hi.
My name is Madalynn, Maddie for short. I am 20 years old but I have way more life experience than most people my age. I lost my Dad and Brother in a plane crash when I was only 13 and I never really dealt with that loss. So for the past 2 years I have been in and out of hospital psych wards and been under going therapy and psychiatry. Now I am doing much better and I live on my own with my puppy Toby.
I am confused in almost every aspect of my life. A perfect example is how many times I have gone back and forth in my head over what I want to do with the rest of my life. But I've come to realize that I'm not the only person my age that feels very confused about that aspect of their life so that gives me a lil' bit of comfort.
But everything that revolves around my Dad and Brothers death has become sort of a blessing in disguise. Without all of the pain and suffering I endured from that and all of the mental breakdowns I've had that are attributed to that, without that pain and heartache I could have never written any of the pieces I am about to share on here.
I am only 20 years old, but I am already a much stronger and a much better person because of all the pain and heartache I have endured. My life changed drastically 2 times already, once when I was 13 because of the death of my Dad and Brother, and the second change came out of me making it through several severe breakdowns. I have been so down that I couldn't get out of bed for a week... but I'm still here. I used to cut myself and I have thought about suicide so many times in the past, but I'm still here. A 20 year old girl has been through hell and back already but she, I am still here, and much stronger because of it.
So what seemed like torture at the time was really just a blessing in disguise for me. Everything I have been through has literally killed me and then brought me back to life....it has made me the writer I am today!

My passion is ...

Writing my poetry

I know too much about ...

Mental Illnesses and Depression - Unfortunately-

My parents always told me ...

"Always be true to yourself" & "Friends come and go, but you can always count on family"

My childhood ambition ...

Was to work with children

My favorite memory ...

My families annual camping trips to Okaboji, IA

Why I write ...

I write to release my emotions, I write to express myself, I write to show the real me.

What I am reading/watching/listening to ...

Rock music on my Ipod

My first job ...

Detassling....I'm from Iowa what can I say.

My best moment ...

When I was acting with my friends in speech and drama productions in high school.

My inspiration ...

My Mom, Dad and Brother -definately-, My life experiences -good and bad-, & My emotions

Creative Writing > Poetry Poetry: Who I am

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"Hate" I hate the way I feel, Torn to pieces inside, I hate the things that I do, Like when I run and hide. I always feel so weak, When inside I know I am strong, And all I really want, Is to truly belong. I always feel invisible, So unloved and unwanted, Because who wants to be with a girl, Who's past always has her haunted? I always feel so alone, Like no one even cares, I would kill just to have Worries and Troubles, Such as some of theirs. My life would be so much easier, If I wasn't so messed up in the head, I have to constantly fight off thoughts, That always race through my head. Wh...

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