: About Me

My childhood was a very difficult and unique one. I am not going to go into all the details but I will say that as a young child I was neglected, malnourished, beaten and sexually abused. All of these things have left long lasting scars, from mental problems, to emotional scars, to health problems. Physically I am short and very thin. I have hypoglycemia, a disease that my body developed so that it will never be malnourished again.
Emotionally it is hard to trust anyone. It has been hard for me to having meaningful relationships and to feel like I deserve to be loved. Then there are the mental problems.
Because of the neglect and the malnutrition my mind didn't get what it needed to have to develop during those critical early developmental stages. This made school very hard for me and I soon found out that I am dyslexic. This definitely made things very difficult.
With all this you would think that I would be a depressed shell of a person. But, I learned, at a very young age, that I was going to have to get through this on my own. If I wanted a happy, some what normal life, I would have to get it for myself. I decided that I was not going to be a victim. I would get through this.
So I set forth, learning everything that I could, standing toe to toe with every challenge I faced and finding who I am outside of all my childhood pitfalls. Along the way writing became my way to get what I was feeling out.
Now I am not saying that it wasn't a struggle or that I didn't stumble along the way. But, today I am proud to say that I have made.
I am married to a wonderful man and together we have two wonderful little boys. The boys, of course, had to add their own drama to our lives as they were both born premature. The oldest was born two months early and our second son was born four months early. What a stressful and trying time. But, I am happy to say that everyone made it through. They are both healthy, happy and rambunctious boys. We are a very happy little family.
Now I know that many people who have been through the things that I have been through still struggle and some even see it as a reason for why their lives suck, or why they are a bad parent, or why they are a bad spouse. But, I use it as a reason to do better. It drives me to be a good mom, a loving spouse and to succeed in life. I am no longer a victim of what happened to me during my childhood. I am a survivor.

My passion is ...

drawing, painting, knitting , basically anything crafty

I know too much about ...

classic musical stars

My parents always told me ...

is there anything you can't do?

My childhood ambition ...

be an artist

My favorite memory ...

the days my children came home from the hospital

Why I write ...

it helps me keep my mind active

What I am reading/watching/listening to ...

classical mucials and their soundtracks

My first job ...

at dairy queen

My best moment ...

starting my glass etching business

My inspiration ...

my sons, at such a young age they have been able to get through so much

Creative Writing > Reflections Reflections: My stepmother

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As a child I found it very hard to get along with my stepmother. No matter what, we always seemed to be fighting about something. Either I was not behaving in the manner that she expected or she was, in my mind, just trying to pick on me. As the years passed we found it hard to even be in the same room together and it reached it's peak in my teenage years. I was busy being your typical know it all teenager and she was just trying to raise me to the best of her ability. During this time we exchanged hurtful words and ended up not talking for two years. These two years were spent with the tw...

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