Most of you know the repetitive anguish that has happened seemingly on a continual basis the last few months. It has been very difficult, almost impossible to keep my head up and if I do it's only for a moment. I still wake up, make jokes, act like myself but for the one's who truly know me; know the heartache each incident has caused. Broken is the only way to explain in one word how I feel.

I consider myself to be a pretty strong woman-I have always tried to remind myself that the word says "The sufferings of the present time will not compare to the glory that is to be revealed to us." There are times however when those words don't matter. I get angry and frustrated-I want to give up and walk away from this life all together because I don't understand it. I want to stand on the tallest mountain and scream WHY? so loud that God will have to answer me to get me to shut up! I get anxious and I fear a phone call or a knock at my door-I fear my health on a daily basis-fear fear fear-I go through all of this-but at the end of the day I seek truth and I seek reason. "Lean NOT to your OWN understanding" That's a little hard at times because I'm impatient I want to know now! I want a reason and I want to be justified in some way or another. I don't want people to think ill of me I want them to know the truth! So when do you start caring what God thinks of you and becoming satisfied with that?

I'm here today to simply state a few things. This is based on Proverbs 15:15 (look up "evil foreboding") and then the book of Psalms where David continues to pray for mercy chapter after chapter~and can't we ALL relate to that?!

Living with negative, critical and threatening feelings will always- no matter what steal your joy. If you live in the "what's the next bad thing that's going to happen" mode you are doomed for failure EVERY time!

You are preaching to the choir here-I know about anxiety and fear. Fear for tomorrow, fear for today, anxiety has ruled my life for quite a while now.

As believer's we are programmed to believe that Satan is the direct cause of all bad things that happen...in area's that is true...in other's it is not. Things just happen! When you choose to live your life for Christ and I never understood this until now-when you choose to live your life for Christ I think we just notice more. If we didn't notice,we would have no one to blame therefore at times putting a wedge in between yourself and God saying "well every time I get closer to

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