My Plan of writing a book on living with HIV in the U.S. looks pretty bleak after seeing how little interest there appears to be on this site I've only been able to find two topics dealing with the subject and combined they have produced only four writers thus far.Maybe it,s just that treatment's are failing and there aren't many still alive with the virus or maybe the fear of letting our voice be heard because that might lead to some persecution still exists or it could be that the other issue's facing the world have become more important.'then again it could be that I'm new to helium and I and the topic has been discussed in detail.Whatever the case here is my story...

I remember it was back in 1996 when the symptoms began I was working for a carnival in Vermont serving Sausage subs I believe it was August I became dizzy passed out and was taken to the hospital by ambulance I arrived in the emergency room I had very congested lungs white stuff in my mouth and feeling very weak which is what I explained to the nurse when asked.In came the doctor who performed very few test's no surprise since I did not have health insurance I was told I had the flu drink plenty of fluids and take some cough medication you'll be fine so I left and returned to work.The cost of this visit over 1200.00

For the next few months I traveled around feeling very sick and not much like my normal vibrant self.I hadn't had the desire for sex in awhile which was very unusual for me I was quite attractive and usually had no problem meeting woman to share my desires most times at least 1 a week and very often someone new every day.Probably the baby blues.anyway enough stroking my ego that's what got me here in the first place.I remember thinking man is this flu ever going to end and what is this white stuff I've tried every over the counter dental hygiene product I can find and still it won't go away...

Now in South Carolina I heard of a hospital on a military base and thought maybe they would help me.this flu should really be gone by now and man I miss sex.So it's off to the doctor again.I explain my symptoms and previous diagnosis.The doctor says he would like to run some blood test when he returns he explains that some of my counts are very low and asks about my sex life which at this point is almost non existent.So I explain I have had many partners.He tells me he would like to perform an HIV test I'm thinking it's not possible but I say sure.Then he adds you will need to come

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