by Dulcinea DR

Created on: April 14, 2008

I had been contemplating about my birthday ever since 2008 started. The fact that I just turned 28 two days ago was like a blow in my face. I couldn't accept that I am on my late twenties and have not yet achieved many things in life. I was crying for the numbers. I thought I'd be married by now, have at least one child to take care. I thought I'd be a accomplished woman a wife, a mother, a homemaker.

But I'm not... not yet. Instead, I'm just starting a new career. I feel like a late-bloomer.

What saddened me more was that I had no budget to celebrate my birthday. I canceled a date with my fiance because I know he'd be the one paying for it, and I don't want that to happen. I wanted to pay for whatever expenses we'd have because I wanted to give him a treat for everything he has done for me.

Yes, my life is complete. I just didn't realize it until now. My fiance was convincing me to cheer up and accept the fact that another year was added in my life. I should be thankful for all the blessings that I've got.

He was right. I did not appreciate the little things that made my life complete. All I was seeing, or wanted to see, are the things that are not in my life... yet.

I should be grateful to God that I'm still breathing. Reaching my age is already a miracle.

I should be grateful that I have surpassed all the trials that came in 2007. I was on my second year in a Protestant seminary when I quit the church work and seminary life. The hardships that I encountered before making that decision were brought by the ghost of the past.

I should be grateful that everyday I am learning to let go and fight the big fight.

I should be grateful that in spite of leaving my vocation, God never left me alone. He used my trusted loved ones to accompany me in my letdown.

I should be grateful that I was able to find a job, and still having it until now.

I should be grateful that I was able to use my writing skills as a freelance writer. More and more opportunities are coming, and the fact that God is blessing me with the knowledge that I need is more than enough to keep me going.

I should be grateful that I have a special someone who has never abandoned me. And this special someone promised to share the rest of his life with me.

I should be grateful that next year I'll be married to him, and build a beautiful family together.

I should be grateful that I am able to realize that life is beautiful.

I am grateful that despite my low moments, I have more things to appreciate - the little things in life that God compiled for me to make me complete.

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