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I was not my fault when the rapist decided to choose me. After ten years I still run it over in my mind. The help I have to pay for is all well and good but it really doesn't help at all. The images are their and the feeling is there forever.

I was leaving work one night. It wasn't even dark yet. I got into my car and he was already inside. I didn't see him until I was already on the road. He sat up and still I never noticed until I glanced at his face, which I will never forget, in the mirror. I don't think, rape was ever his first intention. I was wearing a skirt for work, a white frilly top, make up, things I have always worn for my job. I think he only was going to take my car but he kept looking down over the seat, at my legs. I tried to pull down my my skirt to cover my knees as I asked him over and over, "What do you want from me, money?" He grabbed my purse and rummaged through. He then found my wallet inside and took all the cash and credit cards. He then asks me to pull over. I did, we were now on a side street beside a park. I thought he was going to get out but he put one arm around my neck and with the other he starts to rub my leg. "What do you want, I gae you everything I have." I said almost in tears. He jumps into the front seat with his arm still around my neck. He forces open my door with the other arm and forces me out of the car. He drags me behind a bush and from behind his back he draws a large knife. He pushes me to the ground and starts cutting my top open. I was frozen with terror and shaking. He pulls down my skirt and cuts my panties off then starts to rub the cold steel over my body. I looked at the sky trying to think of everything else, anything to keep my mind off of what he was doing to me.

I did nothing wrong, it was never my fault. The courts found him innocent because of the way I look. They never once considered the knife that came into play. He had a better lawyer I guess. Women are forever being violated but society doesn't see it, they only see what they think of as a relationship between a man and a woman. This was not a relationship, this was an injustice. I think about it every day of my life and this is something no judge, jury, or therapist can wipe clean.

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