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There is great harm for homosexuals who stay "in the closet" I know I was one. There is also harm to those directly involved with the homosexuals that stay "in the closet". From personal experience I can tell you that staying "in the closet" can devastate the entire family. I married young, and my husband and I were married for 16 years. My husband never dreamed of the torment I lived in on a daily basis. He of course did know that I had gay relationships before him, and that there was the chance I would go back to it. He loved me and he did not care. I of course hated the thought of sex with him. I never denied him, but I would cry when it was over. He was asleep by the time the tears fell so he never knew. We have three daughters, although one of them was still born. The other two are very close in age. When I met my soul mate I denied it for seven years. Until one day it just sort of well just happened. We were in love with one another all this time. I could not cheat on my husband. I would not cheat on my husband, so I asked for his permission to go ahead with the relationship. He could not deny me, because he wanted me to be happy. Although my relationship with her was killing him. Finally his jealousy took over and the whole ordeal took a turn for the worst. I know that he was in love with me but I could not help it. I was in love with her too. I could not help myself. He told everyone in my family, which of course had no clue I was gay. With the exception of my youngest sister who apparently knew for a very long time. My mother went nuts, and tried to keep me from my love. My husband was there and the whole lot of family gathered for an intervention. As though my feelings were an addiction or something. They screamed, I screamed, the children were caught in the middle of it all. My mother helped my husband divorce me and get custody of our children. My mother told me she would help me get them back when I got help for this confusion she thought I was in. She blamed the whole ordeal on my fathers suicide. Nothing could have been farther from the truth. My children have been told so many untruths that they do not come to see me the way they are supposed to. I know I could have stopped it all if only I would have stayed with him and had her on the side " invisible side" but I deserve to be happy too. I am currently with the same woman that I choose over him that day. There are those who still do not talk to me because of all this mess. I am happy now though, and so is my ex-husband. We finally found a way to be friends again, and he is not in love with me any longer. Or at least that is what he says. I am not sure because he still cannot deny me much of anything. The harm caused in my case was spread wide and deep. These things should have never happened. I should have been true to myself many years ago. I would not have torn apart, and neither would those that I love the most. My family accepts me for who I am now, and they accept my life partner as well. "Oh what a tangled web we weave, when we practice to deceive ." Be true to yourself,and to those you love stand Strong in who you are. "In the closet" will do more damage than anyone can imagine .

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