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Why can't I reach out and touch you anymore? I lost your embrace,Saturday was the longest day of my life. I knew it was coming but i did not want to face it. I stayed down in the basement in my little reading nook trying to avoid the sounds of you moving back and froward in and out of the house with your belongings. It was so vivid for me i could almost tell what you were taking each time you walked out of the door. Every time the door closed, I felt something in my spirit die. Why does love have to leave, why is it walking away. I realized that we had grown apart years ago. Where did the promise go our vows had been broken. Had I become so entangled with my career and this house, and these cars, and the life I thought you wanted that I could not realize that you only needed me instead of diamonds, me instead of new floors, me instead of new cars, I spent more time balancing my check book to give you what I thought you wanted when all you really wanted was time with me.

After two hours of you aggressively loading you belongings I begun to hear a hollowness in the house , but I realize now it was the gapping void growing in my heart. Empty was the times when I came in and you were already sleep. I was disconnected,from your reality and oblivious to my future. the more I did the further you got, I don't even know how to look into your eyes, because its been so long since I took the time to try and for fill your needs rather then the need I thought you had. Each step you took I new it would not be long before you were gone, I tried to bring myself to come and speak with you . But my pain had me paralyzed, Finally as the back and forth slowed down I had to make a move as I approached the stairs , I could hear you sobbing, I stopped and only did one step at a time with each step I came closer and closer to the sound of your pain and reality set in with each step. Finally nothing I heard no sound and I reasoned with my heart to open the door. taking deep breaths and pondering the words for you finally I had it all together . I was not going to lose you I opened the door and as I had stepped through I saw you pulling out of the drive way. My heart sank in the foyer of pain. I feel to my knees. It was as if you knew I would be on my knees as I wept , I opened my eyes hoping for one chance to look you in the face and say no. I noticed a note on the floor it read. " Thank you for giving me the best life , I had it all but it was you I really wanted, I poked around all day, something in me told me you wanted me and that you would come up and stop me and hold me and keep the promise you made to me on our wedding day til death do us part. Instead you did not make move so I hope she makes you happy Love Honey"

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