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love my dad and I wanted to make sure he was taken care of. This was a very hard time for me, as my dad really needed me and I was still struggling with the hurt and anger from the past, while also facing the fact that any chance of finally winning my daddy back from alcohol was impossible at this point, because my dad was dying.

Daddy knew I had hurt and anger built up from the past and he allowed me to talk about it and get it out in the open. I know this was not easy for him and that he was only able to let me talk about it because he loved me so much.

I will never forget the day the hurt and anger finally left. God truly brought healing to me. When the hurt was there, I couldn't remember any good memories from my childhood. Everything was a blur all I could remember was the hurt.

That day, I walked out of my bedroom into the living room not knowing what I would have to deal with that day. I walked in and something was different. I glanced at daddy who was sleeping. I stopped in the middle of the room thinking something is different. Something is gone!

That is when I realized the anger and hurt were gone. All I could feel was the love I had for my dad. Memories I couldn't remember before where finally there. I could remember good times before alcoholism took my dad from me.

My dad could no longer open his eyes or speak but I knew he could hear me. I climbed into his hospital bed and started to talk to him about memories that I knew he wanted me to remember. As I talked I would say, daddy do you remember this, daddy do you remember that? As I spoke, I could see a tiny glimmer of a smile on his lips.

Oh, how I wish I could have received healing from the anger and hurt sooner, so that daddy and I could have both discussed those happy times together. However, I am ever so thankful that daddy knew before he died how much I love him and that the anger and hurt of the past was finally gone.

Daddy died a few days later. I held him in my arms and told him I loved him as he took his final breaths. I Praise God the anger and hurt were gone, the only thing I felt was Love for my daddy. I also Praise God that daddy died peacefully knowing that God had healed me of the hurts of the past.

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