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I woke up that day just as I had any other day. My brother was going out on a ride with my two other brothers, and a small but handpicked group of friends. I was on my way out the door, to another day of work.I told him to hurry up, "Don't keep the guys waiting" I said as I walked out the door.
Little did I know, how my life, as well as my families, would take a drastic turn that day. I had no warning, nor any feeling, that disaster and despair was about to strike.It happened about one in the afternoon, a very bad call. I had no idea how serious it was at the time, but I left work and drove to the hospital with the biggest cries. My hands shook so violently that I could barely hang on to the steering wheel.

The next 20 hours were spent waiting for the brain surgeon to tell us something positive. A sign of hope. However, there were no words of hope or encouragement offered. my brother was gone.
I actually remember feeling my heart break. I had known people that died, but never someone as special to me as my brother. I had no idea how to deal with such a tragedy, who to talk to, or where to look. Luckily, my family was there, and we helped each other as best as we knew how. They were the best for me, for sure. However, we were all in great pain, felt a great loss.
I remember the moment that was crucial to me. The moment that I was able to smile. It was 2 months after he died, I had a concert planned for months and months. He always asked me how many more days, how many more days till Lenny Kravitz? I would always tell him, with a huge smile on my face.
Well the concert took place two months after I lost him. I did not want to go. My friend (bless her) told me I had to go.I owed it to my brother and myself. I went in the saddest spirits, but I left feeling so high and happy. My brother came and hugged me at that concert, he let me know he was okay. Although I felt his hug for under a minute, tears came to my eyes and the largest and most grateful smile came to my face. That was a moment I will never forget, and it was a moment I knew I would be okay.

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