It has been a long time as it seems, but really when you look at the scale of life-it really has not been the forever to reach this place I am now at.

Every individual suffers heartbreak after heartbreak through the years. Some bounce back fairly easy, others do not spring back as soon. I am not sure what category I fall into. I know I have carried a chip on my shoulder for years.

I believe that I have finally came to terms with one heartbreak....Fibromyalgia. Thats right a syndrome, not a person, not a failure to succeed-a syndrome. I have been mourning myself for months now. I have been mentally unable to function normally due to the heartbreak from a syndrome. The pain, fatigue, and everything else that fms produces has broken my heart. It took away so much from me. That is what I thought anyway. I have now figured out that I may not be able to do what I should and want to any more, but I do have so many other wonderful reasons to be happy through my remaining years.

There is Kylee. She is a wonderful seventeen year old young woman. She makes jokes, she cries, she works, she goes to school, she argues, she helps out, she draws, she laughs, she is healthy, she is a great childcare provider, she is great with animals, she is a granddaughter, she is a daughter, she is a sister, she is a niece, she is a cousin, she is a friend, she is........my life saver.

There is Christina. She is a wonderful fourteen year old adolescent. She makes jokes, she cries, she helps out, she goes to school, she argues, she reads, she laughs, she is healthy, she loves horses, she sticks up for you, she is a granddaughter, she is a daughter, she is a sister, she is a niece, she is a cousin, she is a friend, she is.......my rock.

There is Cowboy-who is a mutt that sticks by my side and is almost always here except today since he is in doggy jail....lol.

There is the friends of the girls that make me laugh and happy that they are in lives of my two daughters. They call me mom sometimes and make me feel like I am a part of something. To see them all smile and laugh really is a greatness that should not be taken advantage of.

There are myspace friends that leave comments every day to lift your spirits up when the pain has consumed most of your thoughts. To bring a smile to your face when you feel like no one really wants to understand what you have suffered today, yesterday, and last week. They also send messages of well wishing and words to make you understand their hell. These people let you feel like you can help them as much as they help you.

These are all things that I took for granted in my life. Which till yesterday I considered my hell. This is not hell that I am living, this is life. I will conquer what is put in front of me, and I will help others that need it. I will smile each and every day, and I will live like every day is a new day (as BlueUniq put it).

So thank you to everyone that has helped me through the tough times, and I want to apologize for taking what I do have for granted. Life begins every morning with the sunrise, but it does not end with every sunset!

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