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I'm 14 and i feel like I'm 40. Ive always been pushed by my dad to do my best, he is one of those fathers that pushes you down so you can learn how to stand, but i felt no love at all. He was never that nice, he didn't hit me or anything, i just felt invisible, like he was seeing someone else when he looked into my eyes. Like all the other crap in my life, i over looked it and thought better he see someone else and love me than not love me at all. I always thought my dad was the picture perfect dads, the ones that when you come home you run up to them and give them a big hug. i was daddies little girl, even if i didn't feel like i was. in 2005 my dad decided that the job he had, had for 10 years was bad so he quit, than he decided he wanted us to move to Idaho. Of course i was thinking, "NO!" but he really wanted to, so my mom and my brothers let him have his wish. Of course, the house didn't sell and my dad got a job up there so just he moved up there until the house sold. The market was really bad so the house didn't sell and my dad stayed in Idaho, it was really hard for my mom. Last Christmas my dad was acting weird when he came home, like he was somewhere else. Than on New Years Eve, my mom told my brother and i that my dad had filed for divorce. than she found out he had been lying to her about a lot of things, my mom and dad had bought property in Idaho, but my dad had my mom sign papers that she thought were just to finish the payments, but it turned out they were to put the land in my dads name so my mom had no ownership to the land. While my dad wasn't working before he moves to Idaho, my mom was working, and it turns out that my dad and not pays a lot of his taxes and signed my moms name so now the Government is mad at her and not him. A lot of times i have walked in on my mom crying and i have ended up holding her and telling her everything will be OK. My dad basically abandoned us that continued lying to us, while he is making money, my mom is jobless, she lost her old job cause the company she worked for closed down. My dad doesn't pay anything, my mom has to pay for everything for my two "older" brothers and i. i don't even know my dad anymore. i don't think i can ever truly forgive him, he has destroyed any respect or trust i had for him. its hard to have a father you aren't proud of, i see some of my friends who have wonderful fathers, and what do i have. Him. I have my mom and i hope anyone who doesn't have a good father has a wonderful mother and if you don't I'm truly sorry. My father failed me by not being the man i thought he was and abandoning me right when i really needed a father.

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