I got to know him through the Internet years and years ago. We started sending emails to each other. He seemed very sweet, so before I knew it, I started sending emails every day and every single day when I dialed my modem, I sent a silent wish that he would have replied already. Most of the time my wish came true and I was SO delighted.

Then I found out that he went to the same university as I did, though he took a different major. We exchanged phone numbers, so I started calling him and I became addicted in getting to know him a lot more. Wanna know what I did? Yes, I started calling him every day. He had his own private phone in his bedroom, so I wasn't afraid to bother anyone else in his house. We still kept in touch via emails and phones. He only called me once, but most of the time I was the one who called him.

During the night I'd call one close friend of mine to tell her the details of our emails and our phone conversation. I was desperate in getting to know what he truly wanted from me: friendship or more? I wanted my close friend to evaluate everything I confided in her since she could be more objective than I did.

Then after some time we decided to meet in campus. We went out to have lunch and then we went to a bookstore. Nothing much. It was all right and then we continued talking on the phone and in emails. After some mixed signals from him, I finally gathered up my courage to tell him that I liked him in one email. He said he liked me too in the form of a poem with some flowery background. It was sweet. He also put some animated pictures on the email.

My heart leaped from my chest. My close friend told me that it was a good sign, but that didn't mean he wanted to do anything more with me. It just meant that he didn't push me away. However, things went downhill from there and in the end I decided that he wasn't worth it. But the memory of my infatuation is still stuck in my head. To think that I dared tell a guy that I liked him and that I called him every single day are two things that you won't exactly expect coming from a girl like me.

Infatuation truly blinds you, so beware of it! Make sure you have a close friend to serve as your reality check, otherwise you'll soon be floating to clouds number nine without realizing why or how and then you may end up falling back to earth in full speed. Ouch!

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