14 of 16

Write now Article Tools

The hardest part about getting sober is trying on the new emotions. I've hidden from myself for so long that I am not sure what to think or say or how to react to a coming problem. Before now, I just drank until the problem got so bad that I could excuse myself from it because "The problem is to big for me to handle." or else "someone will fix it for me." On other occasions, i just pushed the problem aside because "it isn't important enough to deal with." I would let things bother me that other people would not give a second thought. I thought that drinking made me happy, but now realize that, when I drank I wrote my darkest about me and the world around me. Now i am not sure what to feel, since i have not really felt anything except for anger and sadness. On occasion when my mood would swing to the happy side, I'd feel mediocre. I could conjure up a smile, but most people could tell that it wasn't serious or natural.

Learn more about this author, Chris Ross.
Click here to send this author comments or questions.

Add your voice

Know something about Reflections: The road to sobriety?
We want to hear your view. Write now!