by Emeralddawnn

Created on: August 30, 2007

Mother's love begins before birth

A mother's love for her children is great even before the birth of a baby. Especially when a mother is advised it's not wise to have one or another one. This story is about my pregnancy with my second child who was born in 2006. I have loved him before I knew he existed.
I always mentioned that my firstborn would be my only born but that changed when I met my husband in 2003. I knew the issues that could arise from getting pregnant again. I knew the danger I was putting myself in but when I found out that I was pregnant, I didn't care. I knew from the beginning my husband wanted a baby of his own and I wanted to be the one who gave that to him.

I accepted a job in a new state and figured after some time, we would try for our baby. Yet, three weeks after moving here, life surprised us all. I was already pregnant. Despite cutting out all the salt from the moment I found out, my life would never be the same. Trouble began during my third month (1st trimester).
First, I was diagnosed with Hashimoto's Disease. It attacks the thyroid gland and if not taken properly care of can lead to death in the fetus and even for the mother in latter stages. I was immediately placed on Synthroid and most of my symptoms began to subside. I was even able to lose weight even though I was eating pretty regularly.
Secondly, pains in my side would knock me out of breath and literally drop me to my knees. I would cry from the pain because it felt like someone was stabbing me. After a month of these, they finally subsided.
Thirdly, because of my previous pregnancy ending with Toxemia and subsequent blood pressure problems since, I was placed on medicine to control it. Yet, my work was suffering. As a reporter, memory problems do not go hand in hand. Pregnancy, not totally confirmed, causes some women to be forgetful. In my case, it got so bad I was missing stories and deadlines.
Also, I was being taken off of work nearly every week. In January, I was out on bed rest more than I was at work. The day I returned back to work, I was in a car accident and when the officers found out I was pregnant, I was sent to the ER by ambulance. That doctor had me off for the next day to be sure no complications would arise.
On February 9, I asked my employer if I could leave early. I was trying to avoid being taken off of work again. (Since I was high risk, my appointments were already every 2 weeks.) My appointment was for 2:30 and I wanted to leave by 1 p.m. However, she said

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