by Jessica Man

Created on: August 28, 2007

Defeated

"Don't you know
I lose everything?
Doesn't matter Big or small
Something tangible or not
Pricele$$ or Worthless
Even MYSELF
I can lose it all"

She lOOks at me dumbfounded,
Her stare is unable to grasp

I continue to tell her
I am So sick
So sick of me waiting
Waiting for the world to be like this
Or the world to not be like that

I am So tired
So tired of being let down
Let down from grown up hopes
Dreams that have not gotten their lift off

I am pleading on my knees
Trying to rise up
To my own mistakes
My own lies
My own demons
Hard to be real with myself
Hard to be genuine with others

She interrupts
She enlightens me, "You still need to try!"
You still need to strive
To aim for
Something meaningful
Someone significant
Your right-self

I

F
a
l
l

My eardrums no longer want to b ea t

My s e n t e n c e s fade

(words)
My go missing

I stare dead on into her eyes
She dearly wishes it wasn't so

I s h r u g
my shoulders and I

F
a
l
l

She no longer hears me
I no longer hear me anymore.

I am Defeated.

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