by Dorian Rosell

Created on: August 16, 2007   Last Updated: April 19, 2009

Women stay with cheats. Women leave cheats. I never had to "go back" to my husband who cheated, I never left. I am only one woman, and this is why I'm still married to the husband who cheated.

I grew up in a whole, mostly functional family. I lived hard, and tried to learn all my own lessons. My family revolved around the good old hometown religion that holds small town America together. I married my high school boyfriend, had a child one year later. I had my college degree, got a good job, and fell in love with my boss. My husband was an alcoholic. I left him. I never admitted to him any feelings for another man, but in my head, I was a cheater.

I and my young son moved to a new city. I never did pursue that boss that I thought I loved. I remained a single parent for 5 years. Then, I met a man who couldn't take no for an answer. I grew to believe in him, love him, and eventually married him. After 3 fun-filled, laugh-a-minute years, we had a son.

Trouble began. He became jealous of our baby. He would spend loads of time being involved with our 12 year old. We moved to a lovely home, and never put any time into our relationship as a couple. I would suggest a weekend get away for couple time to no avail. He had gone off in his own direction.

Then the atomic blast hit me. After a few months of "gas lighting", where he did things to make me believe I was the fault of all ills in our marriage, I discovered the girl he was sleeping with from the office. Our oldest son was 18 at the time and this girl was 21. If this has ever happened to you, you know the mental and physical sickness that took over my body. Depression, no eating, crying, crying and crying. I thought vows were real. We went to a couple of counseling sessions, he said all the right things, the girl was asked to leave the company(he was the boss). I hated him. I loved our sons more. I had once divorced when my oldest son was 3, now he was 18, and thought this man was God. My young son was 6, and thought his father and brother (who would soon leave for college) were both Gods.

I did it for those two young men to grow up into good, never cheating husbands!

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