Becoming a first time mother is the most amazing thing a woman can have happen to her. All the years you have lived until now are all the preparation you have. From the moment you find out there is a little life growing within you, you begin to reflect on anything that will help you wrap your mind around this new miracle. Thoughts of your own childhood run through your head. Straining to recall your earliest memory. Rewinding through time you pass high school, then middle school, next comes grade school, and kindergarten. Reaching back I found 3 year old me.

3 year old me was so happy and so silly. But most of all 3 year old me adored my family, needed mommy, and couldn't get enough of my daddy. Since 3 year old me was the farthest I could reach back I fell back on photos. Oh goodness there I was with my little bum in the air!

Now that I have reached baby me I am filled with wonders. Will my baby look like me? Will my baby be a boy or girl? Will my baby be healthy? On and on go the questions. But the new mommy will have to wait a few months.

Now that the excitement has had time to settle the practical worries begin to surface. How can I afford everything? Is this a good environment for a child? There are many worries a new mother faces for the first time.

Visiting the doctor is nervously exciting and after that first visit completely disappointing until the ultrasound. Because of moving complications I heard the heartbeat and saw an ultrasound both for the first time at the same time. I was filled with so much love and amazement. It cannot truly be put into words. After changing doctors I had another ultrasound at 28 weeks and had quite a suprise. I was a first time mommy of not one but TWO babies, two baby boys.

From that day on they had names and I could feel each one move around as though they were wrestling. The day for them to make their debut came a few weeks quicker than expected. It all went so fast and before I knew it I was no longer an expectant mother but a full fledged, feeding, diaper changing, hardly sleeping mother!

As the days and weeks fly by I notice how each of my boys is like me,the way they look and the way they act. As each month passes they get bigger and more aware of this world we live in. I am more aware now than ever that all the years I have lived until now have been preparing me to be a mother. I am peaceful in this new role. I have never been happier. I am so excited to share life and love, to protect and comfort. All my other hopes and dreams are brighter now that I have the new name MOMMY.

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