by Chris Dixon

Created on: July 17, 2007

Silent losses I have suffered.
Ones that most can't see.
From the moment I knew she was there,
she was a part of me.

They said she was a fetus,
but I know thats not true.
They did not feel the things I felt,

or know the things I knew.

Someone who's never felt a baby
growing deep inside,
cannot possibly understand
a mothers joy and pride.

Each day I held my tummy
and spoke to my little one.

A life alone in darkness,
she had become my sun.

I lived for her
I breathed for her
I dreamed of her each night.

Longing for her day of birth,
when I could hold her tight.

But then,
my dreams were shattered.
My baby went away.
A pool of blood beneath me
I fell to my knees and prayed.

Please Dear God, I beg of you
Do not take her from me,
She's all I ever wanted
All I will ever be.

Spontaneous Abortion
is what the doctors say
nothing to be concerned about,
its mother natures way.

Some people tried to comfort me
some said it's for the best.
With the first they said I was too young,
but what about the rest?

She was the first of many.
Taken to God above.
Although they are not here with me
I give them all my love.

No one seems to understand
the losses I have felt.
Sometime I just can't deal with
the cards that I've been dealt.

How can I be a woman
if a child I can't bear?

So many silent losses
yet no one seems to care.

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