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Monster Within

A life of chaos. Chasing outrageous and dangerous dreams,all the while being followed be demons. Demons in all the categories of your mind,in your soul. You try to escape them in any way that you can,resorting to abusing alcohol and drugs on a regular basis. This reeks havoc on your life,for you think that it may be a way to hold on if maybe just for one more day. But it sinks you deeper into that desperate pit of self destruction that has no way out. Not understanding where you are going or where you have been,rapidly taking yourself from one risky situation to the next. Something so out of control,so out of your control,and nobody knows too much about it. You hurt yourself and others around you without fail time and time again. Always suffering from the guilt and anger of having hurt after the ordeal is over. Much too late for "I am sorry". The pain is absolute and unforgiving. You learn early to hate yourself and can never accept any of your accomplishments.

A mental illness so late to be diagnosed,so much to be researched. So many lives torn apart,their souls battered. You may "be well" for awhile and then you trip and fall, and you get "sick". It is a disease just like the rest of the ones that you can not see, it is torture. It is a Monster of the Mind. You may get better and have a home and family,and then get sick and lose it all. You lose your jobs,your family,your health and the trust of others. An illness diagnosed in your 30s or 40s and you have lost over and over again. Living all that time with eating disorders,suicide attempts,drug addiction,alcohol abuse,self abuse,mania,and severe depression. What you would have done for some relief, something to ease that gnawing pain. You did try different medications only to have strange side effects and no relief, the outcome of being misdiagnosed. Weight gain,mood swings,migraine head aches are just some of the side effects.
To think so often we look at people as odd or different and put them in this category,as being too strange. Too different from us,weird. Mental. Maybe they are, but I bet they can't help it,just like you can not help the fact that you have moles or big feet. We are too quick to judge and throw out human beings. Like there are so many that it does not really matter. Or just lock up the crazy ones,so that they can not hurt anybody. We all suffer in some way,from some illness,great or small. We just need to have a better understanding of the Mental Health system and the related Mental Health illness's and I think that the world would not only be a nicer place,but a nicer place to live in.

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