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what was going on, they said that they were moving us to a different room. We thought, well that's weird. My wife kept asking EVERYBODY what was going on, was our baby okay? The midwife that we had seen only minutes earlier was crying and trying to comfort us. She never did say that there was a problem, only that the doctor is on her way.

An hour later, our doctor has arrived. She gave us the devastating news that our son has passed as he has no heartbeat. We were crushed. How could this happen to us? We were not ready for this kind of news. What about all of the new things we just bought, his nursery, his 11 year old sister, and all of our dreams of him?

After 26 hours of trying to still deliver him naturally, we decided it was best to have a Cesarean. We were given as much time as we wanted with him after he was born. We held him and took as many pictures as we could. Our family who had been waiting outside to see their new addition were told the news. They each filed in one by one to pay their respects to our little angel. We dressed him in his Easter outfit and said our goodbyes.

We were then approached by a nurse who wanted to know which funeral home would be picking him up. We hadn't been prepared for this either. We decided to have him cremated. Luckily my mother in law knew a great funeral director and pastor in the area and made all of the arrangements for us. We had a beautiful service for him and then finally got to take him home, only in an urn instead of a car seat.

This was the worst day of both of our lives. We will never be the same. My wife and I have never been closer that we are now. Nothing will break our bond. No parent should ever have to experience the loss of their child. The only way to keep going is with the love and support of family and friends. It has only been a couple of months, but the days are getting easier to get through. He will always be close to Mommy and Daddy's heart.

We have talked to a lot of people that have been through this and they are still surviving. I know with time the tears will fade but his memory never will.

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