by RubyLane

Created on: January 23, 2012

Every year that passes and a new one starts, there is always the nagging ever-illusive New Year’s Resolution that draws our attention.  The will, to first of all, write down these resolutions requires enormous effort.  Then the actual execution of these impossible things we list with such incredible determination lasting perhaps into the second week of January only to fizzle out beginning of February and dwindle to the back of the drawer to be resurrected sometime in the early hours of the following New Year.  Drummed into my psych at such a young age, guilt plays a part when there’s no resolution in sight; so now every year there are always goals to achieve.

When fire-works signified that 2012 was here, mentally the list was already forming only to die a short death before the night was through.  What was it, that was so hard to promise, and then broken to smithereens in the space of less than 6 hours. Undeniably shameful, I bow my head and submit to self-beating with the knowledge that it is still mid January and I can redeem myself to becoming a better person.

To succeed is to fail, fail and fail again.   So having failed miserably for more than two decades, I decided that this is going to be my year, and have foolproof resolutions and emerge a worthier individual, accomplished, enlightened, disciplined and very focused.

There will be only six resolutions, one for every two months, listed from easy to difficult, leaving the more difficult ones to the latter part of the year so there’s time to ponder on how to implement these tasks.   For every goal completed, a small pat on the back in the form of a present to oneself will make the task more palatable.  Looking forward to six presents would be a great incentive for achieving results.

For goals that are long term, for example, being kind to those that throw stones.  This is a life changing embedded characteristic, so each good deed goes towards points.   For every ten points, being kind to oneself is a reward.  We all need rewards of some degree or another so just being good in itself will not invoke consistent behavior, after all we are human.  Annual betterment should be considered or likened to the world of computers, there’s a constant stream of newer and better versions.   This version, 2012 has got to be smarter and much improved than 2011.

There are no preparations for failure – but being realistic, and human, there is always that chance.   God willing, there’s always the following year to torment ourselves again on newer and better things to achieve..  God not willing, we wouldn’t know so why worry. 

Having failed on the first day of the year, now mid January with only 15 days to February,  the list is complete and ready for execution.   Time to stop pondering and get cracking.   Where was that list again?

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