by Marcia Middleton

Created on: March 01, 2011

ROBERT

Desire me like you used to

Before you slammed the door in my face

For a choice that was never mine

I'm lost without hope of you

The timbre, tilt, pain of voice

Stirs things buried in denial

In my agonized, dying heart

Hours eaten away staring at photographs

Comparing them to my memories of long ago

Killing myself over the slope of your jaw

Cupid's Bow lips- a sweetly deadly weapon

I'm drowning in your hate of me

Choking on the apathy of your cold words

Wandering lost in your labyrinthine mass of walls

That I'll never get around

Nor thru for I only found the single door

Now locked up tight against the intruder

Against just me, in retrospect

In the real world, I never say your name

Preferring to scream it in my head constantly

One of my secret, honored treasures

Your would abhor being hidden that way

But that's how I keep what I hold dearest

My silence makes you part of my soul, untarnished

I wanted to safeguard against the loss of you

To meet a new day fully armed at a later date

Foolish me, people don't grow that way

I've caused you misery that I cannot assuage

And guilt rides me like an unseen jockey

Yet through the unending, lonely night I feel your touch

Phantom and lingering in my silly dreams

Of what might have come to pass.

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