by Melody Phillips

Created on: December 31, 2010

I cannot stay strong

when in my own life I do not belong.

I can get along great for awhile

face each day with hope and a smile.

On certain days though I need family around

Then I realize I don't fit and life brings me down.

No one seems to notice or understand

People act like your crazy or should be dammed.

I don't feel I fit into any part of my life,

sometimes this knowledge pierces my soul like the tip of a knife.

There is no one to talk with to help deal with my shame,

I pray for it to pass so I can live again.

I have a hard time staying calm and in control,

and when the cycle will end I never know.

I'd like to build a good life but before I can

I want someone special who will understand.

That someone who can be strong while I am weak

someone who can calm me and give what I need.

The feelings I have can be scary and sad.

The anger that builds is dangerous and mad.

Control is the key but the lock turns hard

I want someone who can open and calm my heart.

I want to feel I belong and be a part of it all

Just a small part before I get God's call.

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