by Serena George

Created on: November 16, 2010

I Feel So Ashamed!

All at once
I wish I could listen to every single voice
and not be deafened by tearful noise.

In unison,
I would like to see everyone on the planet smile
and enjoy a globalized positive vibe for awhile.

To sense all the love in the universe simultaneously
oh how I crave
(but am I that brave?)

I feel a need to help everyone at once,

to take away their troubles and fears,

Oh, if only I could remove all the tears!

And yet I seem to do so little
I want to, I really do
but still nothing, do I seem to whittle
except give the odd supportive word
and helping hand when time permits.

I am so lucky, living how I do -
nice house in the country,
good food, healthy kids too.

Yet there are SO many not as fortunate as me
and what do I do to answer the call?
Yep, that's right, nothing at all!

I've had a few schemes that I've tried
but ‘cause of my depression I couldn't hack the pace,
so blow the rest of the human race!

Oh the shame!
Yet who's to blame?

My good will is in a mess -
I feel so bloody useless!

And yet
I choose to live (because I have the choice)
I choose to speak, as I was given the voice
so perhaps one day
I will find the strength

to walk the walk
of my mind's talk the talk,
Oh God, how I pray!
and I know he listens
and will show me the way,
when he thinks I'm ready to display,
one day.

(But in the meantime, I guess I may,
have to work on my tattered self-esteem,
for I shall need it, come that day!)

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