by Joseph Love

Created on: September 05, 2010

Over the past while, I've grown to resent him, to hate him even. I might be crazy, but I think if I let this go on, he's going to physically hurt me. I mean, in a perfect world, this relationship could work but I've realized, he's manipulating my life and I just can't live up to his expectations. I really do love him, and it makes me sad, but this has to end.

I know, I may do a few immature things, but it's just a phase. I'll eventually put all of these things behind me. But that's not good enough him. He wants..no, demands, that I immediately give up my life and do exactly what he wants. I mean, I should be able to go out and have a drink every once in a while, but every time I so much as take a sip or one little drag, he's right there, riding me, trying to make me feel like some kind of worthless human being.

I didn't even think that my friends knew about him, but he'd somehow already converted several of them to his side. He's got them thinking that he's got some fairy tale life planned out for me. Those hypocrites will tell me to go home with my man and live like a nun while they're out living it up- they KNOW I'd rather be there with them.

I've tried to live my own life and just ignore him, but the more I've tried to ignore him, the more dramatic he's become. One day, I became suspicious when I started getting sick at work. It was very strange- the more time I spent at work and out with friends, the sicker I became. I started noticing my food tasting strange.. What is he doing to me? Is it possible that he's responsible for this? Yeah, the law is supposed to help with problems like this, but we've all heard the stories- they never really help. Anyway, this close friend of mine, starting me convincing that I'm never going to be able to get away from him, and that I have to take matters into my own hands- maybe even hire someone to get rid if him. We've been talking about how to cover it up from my other friends. What will I say when they start asking about him? Maybe I could just play the silent game if anyone asks. I think it'll work.

Getting rid of him once and for all is a nice thought. No more demands, no more games, just freedom – forever. I'm not absolutely convinced he's done all of this to me on purpose, but again, he just won't take no for an answer. I mean, I have got to put myself first for once.. Right? They said they'd make it quick - I don't need them torturing him or anything. All I have to do is wait for the call and give the final OK, and they'll put this whole bad experience to rest.

What's that? Sorry, I have to step away for a second... Ok, I'm back. Well... this is it. All I have to do is go back to the exam room to start the process. The next time you see me, I'll no longer be pregnant! Can't wait! See ya in a few!

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