by Shannon Lisa

Created on: July 28, 2010

"When it is dark enough, you can see the stars." - Charles Austin Beard

In the past six months I had a miscarriage, had an insane roommate, had (and have) financial problems that were (and are) horrendously difficult to push through, and I have almost lost multiple friendships (because of the insane roommate). Through it all though, I never once gave up or lost sight of the light at the end of the tunnel. I always knew it would culminate to something wonderful in the end because the Universe just works that way. I kept the positivity flowing (for the most part), and good things did come to me in the end.

Even though that roommate was bi-polar, this is not why he is insane. He is insane because he uses lots and lots and lots of drugs. Bad drugs...he did take his medication so he was on good ones too... but mostly illegal substances that land you in jail or make you dead. He sucked me and my boyfriend dry. He destroyed our lives and our way of living and honestly, we were too 'nice' to do much about it. We let him move in because he was a friend, and he was homeless. It was a mistake. It was torture. He spread lies and said awful things to people, he was cruel to me and then told people I was evil and abusive. He stole from us and disrespected us in our own home on a daily basis.

I work from home and was with this person all day every day, but through it all I remained civil and positive. Eventually, when we were about to kick him out, he actually decided to go. Of his own free will he decided that he hated me and so wanted to leave. I could not have been happier. His hatred towards me and the love I showed him saved me in the end. It hurt me to think he hated me though I had done nothing wrong (other than let him live in my house), but a negative thing turned into a positive one and now my home is mine again.

During that time, I got pregnant and had a miscarriage. This was emotionally devastating to my boyfriend and I, but we didn't lose sight of the good things we still had in life. We hadn't planned the baby, it just happened. We would never have been able to give our child all the wonderful things we wanted to. Due to the stress of living with that roommate and other things that were going on, the baby would have suffered inside my body. It wasn't a good thing we lost our baby, it was a terrible thing...but that doesn't mean we have to forget that it might be better this way in such a cold world. We still have our health and we have our happiness in each

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