by Jenifer Rose

Created on: June 18, 2010

Crashing through my mind

Like waves upon the shore

Slowly eating away

At what I knew before

All the things I was sure of

Are slowly fading away

The security I felt

Ebbs day by day

Taking its place are thoughts

Others wouldn't want to know

They couldn't comprehend

Exactly what they show

The pain, the anger, the self-hate

How badly I need it all to end

Finally realizing I have no one

Not even a so-called friend

I'm tired of pretending

Tired of living this lie

Tired of wishing constantly

I could close my eyes and die

I let everyone around me

Think that I am fine

I'll never let them know

Of these thoughts in my mind

The screams echo in my head

Wishing someone could hear

But I know that will never happen

I won't let anyone near

I can't stand anymore disappointment

Nor deal with anymore pain

I want it all to end

Never to feel again

Through it all, they continue

These silent thoughts of mine

Of ending it once and for all

Now is the perfect time

Please don't hold it against me

I swear I've honestly tried

To find a different way to deal

With these silent thoughts in my mind

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