by Jolene Belmain

Created on: May 31, 2010

I almost lost you

when you were a baby

month old to the day

it was all just so crazy

i had brought you in

so many times before

they told me to give tylenol

and just ignore

the problems and fever

that was bothering you so

but I knew in my heart

to my family doctor we must go

he took just one look

and sent us for tests

he would meet us there

to discover the rest

heel pokes and needles

all seemed to hurt

but the spinal tap you got

was by far the worst

listening to you scream

I wished I could take away your pain

not being able to hold you

just drove me insane

I knew it was for the best

I prayed you would live

if it came down to it

my life I would give

for you to survive

and live out your days

my mind was just crazy

like living in a maze

the fluid they took

was hazy almost grey

Meningitis they said

could take you away

the doctor knew the results

so much in advance

he was on the phone

to the air ambulance

when the results had come back

the plane was already there

to take you to Calgary

so your life they could spare

by the time we got there

you already had your meds

sleeping so peacefully

in an incubator bed

I stroked your cheek

and brushed your hair

the drive seemed so long

but we were finally there

three weeks in hospital

I never left your side

slept holding you in my arms

and rocked you when you cried

you survived the worst

with flying colours made it through

beautiful and strong

that is how I see you

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