by Elle Reyac

Created on: May 06, 2010

When I was a child I had so many expectations for my life.
I was sure that there was a football player and shiny red car waiting for me at my 16th birthday
...just like the Girl Talk game board predicted....and me and my friends would play and whisper secrets to eachother around

I thought that college was destined and careers were secure.

I was sure that by 21 I would be married and ready for children.

I was connnnvinced that every couple that meant well were always just as in love as my mother and father.

I can honestly say that there is a line (shhh, a wrinkle) permanently imprinted in between my brows on my forehead. It molded itself there and nested a home from the permanent surprised look that expresses my reaction to life, lessons, and adulthood.



I have been blessed with alot in this life. My greatest blessing was my second chance to live when every book written by man would have dictated that the possibility was not so and demand I die to follow the ebb and flow of humans interpretation of the laws of life.

I have been given a wonderful gift of a family. They are quirky hard workers and deep thinkers, goofballs and dreamers....and always forgiving.

I have been taught a work ethic that stems back to early childhood, Saturday mornings, when my sister and I would get up before sunrise to watch cartoons to surpass the rule that chores came before tv shows. It strengthened with bathroom sink scrubs, rocks taken one by one out of soil and bamboo being hauled across the back yard. I am forever grateful for those lessons I inwardly sulked over at the ripe old age of 8.

I have smiled at unexpected moments and at one point I even was graced to have felt a love that had no reserve or limits in my young adult mind.

I have worn sparkly dresses and had friends that I could have sworn a prince, because of the surprising way they made me feel like a princess at moments when I couldnt even look my mirror reflection in the eye.

Ive fallen asleep to wide and pungeant sunrises, and awoken to deep and inspiring sunsets.

I have sat on endless trains, planes, busses and boats...staring out the window..every foot of ground to pass the window feet that my eyes had previously been virgin too.


I have been blessed.
I have also cried.
Alot.

I can continue to write with the confidence that these tears are what make me smile today , because the wisdom that the pain induced saltwater presented me with every single trickle is what allows me to live as I do today.

I think I like that wrinkle that deepens daily,...located in between my brows on my forehead that the emotion of surprise motivated.

Today I only move forward, and today I count my blessings one by one.

.Tears and surprise expressions alike, life has sure taken me for a few rides.

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