by Kristy Bolander

Created on: May 01, 2010

I wish my body would awake,

And I could add a word for my sake.

But I just lay so still,

My body ignoring my will.

It's sad the way they talk about me,

And what they think my future will be.

There was a night not long ago,

That shattered the life I know.

I stepped into my car to drive way,

My heart broke by what I had to say.

He swore he would never let me go,

And followed wildly through the snow.

I went for help but didn't get there,

He dragged me out by my hair.

He hit me with the truck door,

And promised to do more.

He drove too fast on roads of ice,

Until the crash that ruined my life.

With my side wrapped around a pole,

His truck could run no more.

He left on foot hoping I would die,

But paramedics were near by.

I could not move or even breathe,

And my closed eyes could not see.

Everyday I silently say a prayer,

And beg for healing to find me here.

They say my brain must be dead,

But still I have thoughts in my head.

Doctors say it's hopeless for me,

Because they don't know I fight silently.

Today they decided to let me go,

I hear from whispers soft and low.

I want to cry and beg them please,

Don't hurry to give up on me.

My brain I know isn't dead,

Someday, I can leave this bed.

I want a chance to continue to fight,

Please don't make me go tonight.

Don't give up and let me die,

Please don't pat my hand and say good-bye.

Don't pull the plug that keeps me here,

Don't stop the machine that gives me air.

I want to cry this is a mistake,

Before I suffocate.

If only my fingers would make a fist,

You would find the hope the doctor's missed.

But because I cannot move or take a breath,

I am firmly embraced by death.

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