by Camilo Villa

Created on: May 01, 2010   Last Updated: May 03, 2010

From IBM to the shine of your eyes

It took me many years to delete from my system the image of God that religion installed in my heart and my mind since I was a kid. Raised as a Catholic with all the weight that sin imposes I grew with the idea that God was an old man sitting behind a computer. At that time it was a big, big IBM one with many tapes spinning in different directions. Nowadays with a couple of good servers it would be enough. But yes, this old man would have an infinite database where all positive and negative actions from all humans were recorded.

Using his infinite powers he would be able to scan all events around the planet and track even the subtlest thoughts to count the sins and the good actions. Somehow this image of God was a combination of a sophisticated accountant and a super Big Brother. Linked to this image was the idea of God that was ready to reward or to punish; a God that could be tough and really upset or kind and tender.

It took me years to discover that such God does not exist. That image is just but part of a control machine created by humans to control humans. There is not such accounting and there is no universal Big Brother and even less rewards and punishments.

The best way to describe my own experience with God would be the image of a huge star, hundred times larger than our sun; an infinite source of energy, always in movement, always in action. An energy that is pure love, only love. Each of us is just but one spark of that boiling stream of love. This God does not sanction, it simply is.

We are those sparks of light moving away from the source in a journey that first brings us to the dark. And only from there we are able to see the light, just to fly back to it, to merge in joy and happiness with the love essence we are. We are one single spark since we leave Great Spirit till we melt again in it.

Along the way we cross many others, sisters and brothers, in their own journeys; some times a simple blink in the street, or half-life together. As you reconnect with God you are able to understand, and specially to feel, that we are all one. We are all sparks of God. So the beauty of your eyes or the shine of that butterfly are the best image of God you can have.

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