by Karissa Mcclellan

Created on: February 14, 2010

You used to love me,
But then you saw her,
Then you fell in love with her.
You used to notice everything that was bothering me,
Now you can't even tell if I'm having a panic attack.

It's like I'm invisible to you,
Just as I was in the beginning,
What ever happened,
To you saying you loved me? 

Is it you don't care?
Or is it you don't wish to see,
That you are the one hurting me?

You didn't notice,
When I started cutting again,
You didn't notice,
When you no longer saw me.

Me sitting there bleeding,
Not feeling a thing,
 Wanting to hear you encourage me,
wanting to hear you say you at least care,
But you don't do you?
You pawned me off on somebody else.
So if they fail you wouldn't feel bad,
Not that you would any way.

It used to be,
That I couldn't start my day,
Until I saw your face,
Smiling at me.
But now you only smile when you talk about her,
You only show you care when she is there.

You say you'll come back to see me,
But you lied straight to my face,
The only reason you'll come back is cause of her,
And if you do happen to see me,
You'll probably be surprised,
That I was still alive,
Some times I wonder,
If you would have rather I died.
That way I'm outta her view,
So SHE doesn't feel bad.

Well,
While you were sitting there,
Acting as if I'm invisible to you,
My friend Todd Lewis,
Took your place,
He sits there,
And he actually DOES care.

He'd probably be really mad if he knew,
That I started cutting again,
But if he knew,
How much pain I went through,
All cause of you,
He'd be mad,
Not at me,
But you and her,
The girl you want to be your lover.
The girl who is too afraid to touch you,
Afraid she'll get too attached,
You want to know something chick?
HE'S WORTH THE PAIN!
CAN YOU SAY YOU'RE THE SAME? 

I loved him,
With all my heart,
I let him go,
Because he wanted you,
And you're too afraid to hold his hand,
In my opinion,
You are no better than me.

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