by Noell G. Phillips

Created on: November 26, 2009

Alone

I was thinking this afternoon about how often I find myself alone. In today's complex rush that centers around surviving, one finds little alone time. You will run the risk of being odd should you dare suggest needing this sort of soothing remedy, so I just think of it as balance. I love having select people around me for given periods of time, but we are all so different with various levels of self centered dispositions and there will be difficult challenges.

A prime example is when you are dating someone. Everything seems to be like a play and you are acting out the perfect part. Or should you find yourself in an interview for a new job, your few moments of glory are almost perfect. But when the real life of marriage and employment get underway, you find yourself losing some of the gleam. Real life is hard and real circumstances involve many people who can ultimately cause you distress. My mother always commented on this subject by saying,

" one half the world is running the other half crazy." I've always wondered which half I find myself most of the time.

What might have been as we look back to those we loved and hated, will always be a mystery. I've known for some time that certain people would never have been able to put up with my particular ways. A really good relationship requires extreme patience from at least one of the partners. A wise partner will know how to deal with the situations arising, because they have learned about the buttons that are to be left alone. As I age semi-gracefully, I find myself remembering a tremendous volume of deeds already performed. The words that passed my lips and the actions that followed were sometimes prompted by feeling confined.

So with my own perspective I have to at least add these two significant notes to one's ability to function normally, which are confinement and being alone. We need to interact with other people, yet other people can and will destroy our pride or break our hearts. We need to express our sorrows and joys, but only to those who really care and will listen. The question also arises, " do you wait in a conversation to talk or do you listen while others are talking ? " We arrive in this world hopefully in our mother's arms and are comforted throughout our young adulthood. However, as the years pass by, we slowly realize our life will soon end and we will face that space of time without remedy. That few hours or seconds when we will have to be alone, knowing there is nothing we can

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