by Van Harris

Created on: November 25, 2009   Last Updated: November 26, 2009

How interesting is this subject, schizophrenia and delusions of grandeur. I, like Stewart, also suffer from both. I, as well, do not believe like that the latter is a symptom of the former, not for me. I have accomplished more in my life than most that are considered normal; on that note I have also been in trouble more than most, though not the kind of trouble that is most thrown at us by the mental illness industry.

I have been to all three of the practices of mental illness. Woo-Hoo. What a crock. I have been on both sides as I have been pushing forward with my education within the psychology field to the course of forensic science. I have studied more then most all while living through the same things I have been studying, and only biting my tongue every so often, choosing my fights.

It may seem to all those that I have encountered; that do not know me; I seem normal. It has taken many-a-year to appear to be normal with what I deal with on a second-to-second basis. Only my teachers know, since I have told them. Catch me by myself, one might find me talking to myself, arms waving in conversation as such. Yep-yep. Delusions of grandeur. No. Maybe. Does it really matter what I am talking to myself about in contrast, apparently, which is my point in all this rambling.

Those that have been throughout history with their "delusions of grandeur" have been the thinkers, visionaries, spiritual leaders, martyrs, innovators of the time; and we of our diagnosis get ridiculed and mocked and pegged as crazy. happy happy joy joy - is what I have to say to thou.

I will not contrast each with the darkness that I feel every now and then, being confused on the reality of things and how one should act in normalcy. I will contest on the prescriptions and the looks I have gotten in the office of said professionals all while telling me that my ideas were great and to follow through - "but I'd really like you to try this pill". Why? What has happened to our society that things would change so?

In summary: why is it that I should learn to change, adapt to exude a form of normalcy that would explain my delusion of grandeur; yet praise me when I complete a poem. painting, sculpture, invention. business venture that you seem appropriate. I have thrown away more thoughts or "delusions of grandeur" that would make you a millionaire then you working for Donald Trump.

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