by ailiina

Created on: November 05, 2009   Last Updated: November 06, 2009

Ever since I was three years old I knew exactly what I wanted to do when I grew up...I knew I wanted to make a difference, and be a great leader. I wanted to be an officer in the Army Reserves and also wanted to have a career in music. Whether it being a teacher or an entertainer I have always loved music and doing what is right. Now a day I am not so sure...I know I still want to do those things but find myself wondering if they will ever happen. I am twenty-one years old and in the Reserves now. Since marrying my husband who is in the active duty Air Force and moving to his first base overseas it is hard for me to find a new unit here, I will also have to put my musical career on hold until we go state side due to lack of a music program. I do not blame my husband for putting my music career on hold or even with what is going on with my military career, but for the first time in my life I find myself not knowing what I am going to do until or if I even get a chance continue with my music degree.

Don't get me wrong I am still going to be an officer, it's just going to take a little longer than expected, but when it comes to things like having a job or what career am I going to have now I have no idea...I can still go to school...but the questions pretty much stays the same...What do I do now? What do would I study? I love music, I am good with music. Do I pick some random major so I can get by and help pay the bills? I don't even think there is a right or wrong answer when it comes to these kinds of questions. There isn't any handbook on what to do in these situations and if there is please tell me. So for now the thought of my future as an individual is frightening. Silly me, I even tried to plan every step before we moved but things come up - more information appears out of nowhere. No matter how much research and man hours are put into something like this you can still find yourself lost, and unprepared. I do not regret marrying my husband, or even moving thousands of miles away from my family, I just wish I knew what I could be doing with my life.

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