by Annie Mehdi

Created on: November 01, 2009

Blackness surrounds me

and fills my being.

Blackness fills me

and scorches my soul.

I am intoxicated

and I can't get enough.

I am in control

and I know I am.

Days are a blur to me,

Is it tomorrow already?

This is my haven,

It will protect me.

And yet, and yet

Tomorrow seems so far away

I am reaching for something long gone.

Or is it just me?

They are all talking now,

Telling me to be cheery.

I tell them I am fine,

I can tell they don't believe me.

They all surround me,

Telling me it's okay.

Okay to cry, okay to sob.

I want my blackness back.

I realize soon,

that I am not myself.

I have changed,

as they all say.

I have lost my control

and done what the weak do.

I sink onto the floor,

Darkness has finally penetrated me.

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