by Jackie Row

Created on: October 25, 2009

Finding your path to self realization is easier than you think.

At the age of 23 I realize that I have spent the past 8 years trying to figure out who I was and what was the purpose of God putting me on earth during this time period. I know anyone reading this would say that I am too young to talk about this topic. I would just like to point out that most people I know have always said to me that I am 23 going on 60. Many folks stumble down this path of realization without even knowing that they are headed down that way.

What does it take to get someone on the path to realization?

I was always amazed at the fact that while my friends were out partying I was at home reading books that would help to find my way to the real me. The authors were educated and I knew if they were happy and successful my life could mirror theirs. A fantasy land with unicorns and rainbows is what drove me to believe everything I was reading. It was more of an escape for myself away from reality. I thought that was what the whole purpose of awakening was about. When I didn't achieve the feeling of satisfaction I felt as if it was going to take more to burst me out of the bubble that sent me to the clouds. I had no idea that that I would feel the burst in such a traumatic way.

I had three major life threatening car accidents by the age of 19. Unfortunately during the last car accident I watched someone lose their life right before my eyes. That was the most terrified I had ever been in my life. I remember standing on the grass without a single scratch on my body. This was the third car accident that almost killed me within three years. It haunted me every night because the person who passed away was only 17 years old. I did not want to over analyze and delve too much into spiritual matters because at that time I questioned God on why this had to be me and my friend that night. My life changed forever after that wreck and I took it as a lesson learned for my soul. It sounds so clich, but what does not kill a person makes them so much stronger.

I could not do anything about what had happened that night nor could blaming someone I did not know bring me peace. It was very difficult at night to sleep. The images replaying in my mind made it worse. I thought of how my life was going at the time and if I kept that lifestyle up where it would lead me to. I'm very fit and in shape today. Back then I did not have the motivation to follow through on projects and college was a joke to me. I never

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