Most of us have struggled with this idea of wanting to find our own way in life. We think that we are unique, and that surely out there somewhere our own personally individualised way is only just waiting to be found.
We search, and we then search some more in trying to find our own path, our own self, and our own unique way.
I have done this myself for other thirty years.
I have grown tired of the search. It has made me begin to think to myself if it is really ever possible to find our own way. If all that exists is the oneness of God, maybe, just maybe by trying to find our own way, we are actually separating ourselves further away from our connection to this greater oneness.
If this were true, we could only ever find our way by not wanting to find our own separate way at all anymore. We would stop searching, and we would just rejoin our place in it all, going with what is, and accepting the great flowing of love through God, allowing it now to take us to all the places, that are right for us now to take.
You would do this by simply loving your current position, and through coming to a complete trust of life, and of where it is taking you to. When you trust completely that all life supports you, and that it always opens the perfect way for you at all times, and in the best possible way for you, you then know that you are finding the best way for yourself, through life as well.
And yet all of the great masters have always told us firstly to, ''Know Thyself.''
They tell us to explore who we are, by asking this question to ourselves, ''Who am I?''
There seems to me to be some contradiction here somewhere, and so I go on searching for my own unique way.
How do we ever find our own way through life then?
This article will explain some of the ways that I myself have encountered.
We have been told that trust is needed, and that faith is trust's sister.
The only consciousness that exists is God consciousness, and we just need to trust this, that this is so. Lower forms of consciousness block us from seeing so clearly our way. God consciousness is living from perfect love. All other forms of consciousness must be raised in us only ever to achieve this same aim. All consciousnesses must serve love, and so also God.
But why do we need to trust anything in the first place?
This step of trust has always annoyed me.
If God consciousness is all that there is, trust is never necessary, as it would actually take us away from where we were. We would only move away from God consciousness by trusting. No, we need to only ever just be as we are. We are God conscious right now as we are already.
Trust resists itself, but true trust loves itself. Trust is only love, trusting itself to love. All other forms of trust are actually forms of mistrust, because you are not trusting love. The only true form of trust is to trust love. This is why I do not like to trust, because I unconsciously know that to trust anything other than love does indeed tend to take me away from love, more to the object of that trust.
This is a small difference in the subtlety of interpretation of the definition of trust, but trust to be real must lead to love, and not to yourself.
God consciousness is meaningless to the oneness, because it is just describing itself exactly as it is.
God and love wanted to feel itself within itself, and so God created another form of himself within himself. This form of God known as soul, began operating at less than God's total oneness, because of his granting to them their complete freedom, autonomously.
God consciousness then moves slowly again through its own parts, and it is felt by each individualised part in ever unique ways for the whole of time, or throughout the various infinities of existence.
This though is still not even the full story. Time itself exists only for the part. This allows oneness to become alive to itself from within its own separated parts, by its creating of time for its parts to experience themselves within. Nothing is ever separated in reality, apart from through this illusion of created time.
What then is time?
Time is simply the expression of infinity growing through nothing into its own oneness again. Time is a created spectrum that oneness sees its infinite nature within time through, and acting now as a shadow of itself. Infinity is a mirror for oneness to view its own self within and through.
''There is nothing to practice. To know yourself, be yourself. To be yourself, stop imagining yourself to be this or that. Just be. Let your true nature emerge. Don't disturb your mind with any seeking.''
''Remember, you cannot abandon what you do not know. To go beyond yourself, you must know first yourself.''
These two quotes are from, Nisagadatta Maharaj, an Indian spiritual teacher who died in 1981.
Is Nisagadatta Maharaj right then, is it all only ever just about finding our own true selves?
Do we only need to find who we are, or is it more a combination of finding us, and then also of finding God, and finally of reconnecting to the infinite oneness of all in combination with our own part of the all, within God?
Is our separation really an illusion, or is it a fact?
Separation is both illusion and fact all rolled together. No facts exist except for in illusion. If all is oneness, then nothing else exists. All is not oneness though from within the oneness. All is infinitely separated within the overall state of its oneness, but that remains always still intimately combined into the one substance of love or God.
God or love creates internally different states of himself much like we do, but these states are given a life of their own from God allowing them to splinter off into a pseudo existence, but also then containing a real freedom. This freedom is complete within the oneness, but it is not free from the whole of the oneness, and so the oneness still exerts its influence in infinite ways on all of its own separated parts.
There is no escaping this infinite oneness working on each part to polish, and to grow it into matching the growth of all, and everything else all growing together. The individual part is in fact separate of course, or none of this would ever work.
The connection is an even deeper form of inner knowing. This knowing then breaks down this artificial outer separation by dissolving it again with an individual realised love, allowing it now to again rejoin with the infinite realised love of the total parts, re-combined into its overall state within the greater oneness of itself.
The sum of the parts then becomes greater than the whole. This is the way that God can grow, by us growing within him. We experience infinity in infinite ways and the oneness grows larger as well, in its own wisdom, truth and knowledge of its own love. Love was largely only an unconscious force within God, until it moved into life, and when it then became conscious of itself.
This is a large mouthful to swallow all at once, yet alone to digest this type of deeper possible meaning to life and to non life, that I am saying here is a part of my own way of understanding my own truths in conjunction with its place within God's total truth.
How could I more simply put this method of finding our own self by walking our own journey, and taking our own individual ways to do it?
Love itself is simple. Love lives in us all. The journey is always going through love for all of us. The way to find love is to simply allow love to find us. We need to give up all searching, and allow the search to be only us observing what is. In this way instead of searching, we become the searched.
We observe our self without searching just as it is now, and then we continue to observe ourselves, as we take our own journey through love.
As we travel through the infinite journey of love we are travelling through God, and allowing God to also become more conversant and knowledgeable about his own parts. Unconsciousness in this way simply becomes known to itself consciously from love.
God's love was initially separated into splinters of its own unconsciousness, to allow these splinters to then prick God into a form of consciousness that was not possible for him before.
These splinters get pricked into growing their own individual consciousness from love, because infinite consciousness is no longer available to it in its entirety.
Each created part then experiences God consciously only because it has been separated away from total infinite unconsciousness. Consciousness lives in separation through time, but it feeds its experiences with love back again to the oneness of God.
Love is a form of infinite unconsciousness that leaves God, by now going into his created parts, and so allowing love to then become conscious or aware of itself. Each part then knows itself from the recognition of its own position within the greater totality of it still being within God. God is not so much conscious himself, but he lives from our experiences of consciousness.
Our own form of consciousness is really only a broken down form of unconsciousness, that is now focusing itself through its own created individualised separated parts.
This is the story of Adam and Eve, as given in the Christian bible.
In the beginning each part was still unconscious of itself being separated away from God. Only when it began experiencing and gaining its own knowledge did it now begin to see and to notice its own separation. This living for itself was then called sin. The way out of sin is to stop only living for ourselves, and to start now to live again only from ourselves, while remaining completely within God.
When we recognise again that we are not in fact separate, we can finally stop searching anymore for our own way. We can just be happy to live for God, and to observe ourselves as we move though his love, by connecting to other parts of God. In this way we are all growing together with God in wisdom, and in truth, and in understanding.
We all grow together from our combined experiences with love. There is now no other way to live, but to live for God, and not for ourselves. When we live for God, we live for all.
The journey is to learn wisdom and understanding from all of these experiences, in order to again find ourselves unconscious of our own separation. When we consciously become unconscious again in this way, our journey is complete, and now we have found our real self to be not real at all, but only ever a part of God trying to get to know itself from within God. This allows God can know better all of himself through us his created parts.
The way to find ourselves is to simply love, and all else will then always follow. Love always finds its way through all paths. We find our way when we find this way of love, and that lives in us as the God part of us.