by Jason M. Castle

Created on: September 30, 2009   Last Updated: October 02, 2009

I'm sorry mom...sorry that I could not be everything that you needed. I know it was hard working nights then going to court with dad during the day. For fifteen years you went to court even after I was 18 you still fought dad. I'm sorry, not for things I've done but for the one thing I could not do give you: peace.

There are a million times that I should be dead because of some random thing I was doing as a kid and you never let me down. There is so much that I am grateful for when I see your picture, the one with the three of us. We where only a family for six years but you never let me forget that I was always loved.

It's amazing to me that when things where the worst you never gave up on me or let me believe that I was some how less because of how hard things where just to put food on the table. Then when I was in my teenage years I started to fight the fact that we where poor and life was hard. I gave you some grief but some times we did OK. The days walking and dreaming of all those things that could be.

I just can't tell you what an inspiration your faith is to me, some one told me once that they thought you where a person with multiple personalities. I just laughed because I know how smart you are, yeah I get it. I know grandpa made your life hell but you made mine survivable.

I guess this is not really a letter about how sorry I am for you but how grateful I am that I have a mom like you. The last ten years have been hell for both of us. Every time I was on the street trying to write or sell a script or get a job you always called and prayed with me. You were the first person who jumped right on board and said "I knew it!" when I told you about going into the Film industry. You told me stories about how writing is in my blood.

Now finally, the bad part is over. We won, I am safe and you're finally in a house that makes' sense. Yesterday I saw a little boy standing with his mom waiting for the train screaming and waving just like I did, I'm sorry mom-that you didn't get to see me laugh so hard I cried.

Thanks for a great life mom, we've had a great adventure.

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