by John Salvatore

Created on: February 11, 2007   Last Updated: May 14, 2007

I am not sure when it happened, but as good as I can remember, I've always been the one to take the initative. I've come to realize that if I don't do it, then maybe nobody ever will. It doesn't matter how much talent you have, its if you have enough guts to believe in yourself and do what you got to do. I'm not going to stand aside and let my soul fly away. I will not answer to you today about what you said, for you have no evidence to hold me down with. How could you do this? I guess I saw us different then you see us. It was like yesterday when I would hear from you every night before you went to bed, but the phone stopped ringing. At first, I thought nothing of it. I'm just making the situation worse by thinking about it. But then a month later, where have you been? I try to call, but no answer. I leave a message:

Hey! Its me, just wondering how you are... I haven't been sleeping right not knowing if you made it safe to bed. I'm here if you need me, I love you!

Two weeks go by, no reply. Inside I start to break for I can't understand nor can I withstand, the aching of my heart. It beats faster wondering what happened. I count my numbered beats. Trying to make whatever number I come up with symbolize us in some way. Whether it was the date of the first time we kissed or maybe that walk were we really found out what was real between us. I still can't forget that cold night. So cold I could see every one of your breaths.. We lay out along the river, under the stars. You in my arms, I felt so warm, even though I couldn't stop my legs from shaking. But I centered my being and focused in on your eyes. Losing my way in the mystical haze that your soul leads me on. I feel even so lighter, like I'm rising higher, higher on our love. I pulled you near as the moon slid away and the sun pierced the omnious sky. Rays of my love shown from above, cast down on your beautiful face and reflect your devotion of loving me. I rubbed your shoulder thinking in my head if only I could freeze time and spend a year dwelling in this moment, this minute, this exact second. Then you sneeze and I bless you with my love. You thank me with a gentle kiss to my cheek. My face tingles, my blood pumps faster. My heart awakens and breaks the walls down of my depression. You opened me up with your ever so gracing beauty and now I see you only in my memories. The pictures of our lives that long time ago that feels like yesterday.

If only I could see you again, spend one more night with you. I

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