"Transparent Facade"

Who gave you my permission?
To hide behind this brick wall?
You're not supposed to be here
Just leave,

Calm down,
who ever you are.
Either raising a raucous,
or kicking up dust
serves no useful purpose.
Besides, you cannot
add a

I feel sick
panicked
crazed. ..

The irrational parts of me
are screaming,
laughing,
because to them,
I've screwed up, again...
And

I look around and try to see
Where I am going or what I should be
It seems that everywhere I look
I am looking at an empty

I trudge forward,
I am really kind of scared.
Things seem so dark and mysterious,
Yet I feel I've already been there.

A nudging