by Stuart Harley

Created on: August 29, 2009

We all have a persona that we put up to protect ourselves from something here is what is behind my persona. This is very personal and will deal with a few issues. So I am a 20 year old writer, I am usually funny, helpful and always there for my friends if they need me and they can always count on me to make them smile. That is me, always smiling.
No its not. Its the me I show the world but sometimes even I cant hide what I am from the world, they see me at my lowest and most people would not even know, though some can tell straight away.

Are you OK? the usual question.
The answer?
I'm fine.
Those two simple words mean so little, when someone stares at you searching for a reason why you seem so off. Well now here is the truth. Yes I am the smiling happy one, the one to make people laugh but its an act. I am constantly acting. the emotions are real but the things I do I need to feel like I am someone else for the moment I am me it all goes wrong.
Before I start I should say this is all true and very personal for me.
Hello I have anxiety disorder, panic disorder and trichotillomania.
Firstly lets start with the anxiety disorder. Before I tell you how it affects me here is the science bit.
Anxiety disorder is a blanket term covering several different forms of abnormal and pathological fears and anxieties. Recent surveys suggested that 18% of Americans will be affected by one of them.
Generalised anxiety disorder: characterised by long lasting anxiety that is not focused on one object or situation. The non specific persistent fear and worry and becoming overly concerned with everyday matters.
Panic disorder: brief attacks of terror and apprehension, often marked by trembling, shaking, confusion, dizziness, nausea, difficulty breathing. these panic attacks are defined as fear or discomfort that abruptly arises and peaks in ten minutes, can last for several hours and can be caused by stress,fear or even exercise, although the cause it not always apparent.
Phobias: The anxiety triggered by a certain fear of something or someone depending on the person fear.
Agoraphobia: anxiety about being in a place that is difficult or embarrassing to get out of.
Social anxiety disorder: describes the fear of intense negative social scrutiny. it can be specific such as public speaking or in any social interactions (the most common). Post traumatic stress disorder: the anxiety after a stress full or traumatic event.
Separation anxiety: the anxiety felt over being separated from a certain place

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