by Veronica Perry

Created on: August 12, 2009

I grew up into the world of drugs since I was a little girl. That was my environment. That was my world straight up into my adult years. I was taught early on the rules of the do's and the don'ts of doing drugs when you do them. I observed people to learn new things and I still do today. It is part of my survival skills. I was wise to take heed to those rules. I saw early on in my youth adults who fell into the dark pit, losing themselves to drugs. Anyone who has grown up into this world will know what time it is. We are both on the same page because we know what this environment entails. We have been there, done that, and we know explicitly what goes on in this environment. I had close calls of falling into drug addiction, but I knew, just knew the consequences from watching others and heeding to the rules. It was like there was an invisible hand in my face that told me to stop and I stopped just like that. I saw what lied ahead. The red flags were waving all around me everywhere. My heart weighed very heavy and I knew it was time to say no. I had no problem saying no, backing off, and taking a break. Within my circle of friends it was no longer fun with good times and laughter. I watched them changing before my eyes. I saw their ignorance because they did not grow up in my world, my environment. They did not truly know the rules. Sadly, those around me and their acquaintances chose to break those rules, choosing to let themselves become diluted, losing who they are each time they took their choice of drug, or drugs, not taking a break, not realizing that they will never be their true selves again. My world and my environment is a harsh lesson with no sympathy, no mercy. When you take drugs without respect it is no different than handling a gun without respect because you are playing with Russian roulette and the world of drugs will take you deep into its darkest of darkness, and that is into the depths of drug addiction.

Most of my life I lived in the darkness with many meltdowns. Partying was the norm for me. It was all I knew and everyone around me partied. However, I always knew deep inside my heart that there was something better for me waiting even though I was lost and confused. During my dark times, I still strived, searching for answers. My desire to seek answers was moving me forward when I did not even realize it. I was moving forward toward the sunshine away from the dark world of drugs and the environment. I was moving away from everything

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