by Deana Clark

Created on: August 07, 2009   Last Updated: August 08, 2009

I am not even sure where to start this article. Everything seemed to have happened so fast. I saw him every day; I didn't notice him right away though because I really wasn't looking for anyone. I am married and have been happily married for 5 years. He delivered mail to my apartment complex. I really had any cause to talk to him until one day I had a certified letter and he rang my apartment buzzer.

He was definitely intriguing. Not like any other man I have met. He was over 10 years my senior. He had three grown kids and a grandson and my children were grown as well. But as we talked, I realized I wanted to talk with him more and more. I even found myself heading down to the mail room every morning just to see him. I could tell he was glad to see me and was interested in seeing me too. We started out just talking about everyday things. Then it proceeded to slight flirting with a bit more in depth conversations. He would tell me about his relationship with his wife. He loved her dearly and they have been together since high school. He has never been with another woman except her.

She is a teacher at their local high school. She was always too tired for sex. He wasn't really looking for sex but he missed the intimacy part. Sex wasn't really a problem for me. My husband and I had sex at least once or twice a week. I was looking for that spark. I wanted to feel wanted and cared for.

After a few weeks, we exchanged emails and started chatting on the computer whenever we could. I worked at home and he had one weekday off a week so it was easy for us to chat once in awhile. It was exciting but risky at the same time.

One day, I was walking to catch the bus after a doctor's appointment and I heard a car horn toot. I looked up and there he was. He was bringing another guy home and was on his way home. He asked me if I wanted a ride. So I got in the car and off we went. We ended up stopping somewhere secluded to park. We didn't have sex and haven't had sex to this day but let's just say that day we got to know each other better.

Our talking continued. We never had a chance to be alone together again but I feel so loved and wanted when we are together. I know this is wrong and I do love my husband dearly but I am not ready to give this up. I don't know what will happen if we ever get caught and to be honest, I haven't thought of the fallout. It is a tough position to be in.

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